I’ve been losing some weight.
Awesome right?! Weight loss means browsing on Amazon or target runs for new and “more appealing” clothing! Yay!
Turns out I’m still not at “that” weight. You know, the one where you can wear that dream outfit on that size 0 fashion model but they swear looks good on EvErYoNe.
Will I ever get there?
Where is there? is there ever even really a “there”? Probably not unless we pay for tummy tucks, Boob lifts and stretch mark erasing.
Am I right mommas?
Anyways. I bought this top on Amazon. Super cute but you can’t really see it in the picture. It’s a bit shorter than I expected but I thought “I’m dropping pounds I can pull it off!”
“Nope. No I cannot.”
I immediately thought as I stood in front of the mirror to see that mom pouch and that front row of really loyal fans I call stretch marks that never seemed to have left the party.
Augh.
As I was taking pictures of my different profiles to see how terrible it really looked on me and what I have to work on something amazing happened.
Something totally ordinary. But amazing.
My diaper baring, sweet, amazing little one year old comes toddling up to me and lovingly grabs hold of my leg.
Hugging me, smiling up at me and not letting go.
Something that happens literally one thousand times a day.
But today was a bit different.
Just at the very moment I was internally crumbling from an unrealistic, delusional sense of failure, in came my innocent baby to tell me, without words, that it wasn’t true.
So with camera still in hand, I bent over to hug her and give her a kiss while snapping a quick pic.
I’m glad I had my camera. Even though it wasn’t expected (clearly cutting off the top of my head).
But I don’t care. Look at how perfect it is.
Stretch marks out and all.
While I won’t be wearing that shirt out anytime soon today I was unexpectedly reminded that those imperfections are a token of the number one achievement I have made in my life (having children).
Today I was reminded that I can wear a grandma gown, a ball gown or a really short, cringingly revealing crop top and my children will not see me as any less than the person they already love me as.
Today I was reminded of what matters.
That love is what matters.
And today, God took a picture of me. 💜
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